Losing sleep

OH.MY.GOD! It is 5am on Saturday morning. What the heck am I doing up?? Um... yeah, thanks Brock! You are wide awake at 5am for the second day in a row. Today I was a little grumpy because I went to bed at midnight and you have been fussing on and off since then. Then Winston (our dog) decided that after I fed you at 4am and got comfy, he needed to go potty! Once I let him back inside, you decided to wake up. So here we sit... me on the computer, and you are literally watching Lilo & Stitch... I've lost way too much sleep in the last few weeks. Mostly because of Winston. He's getting so old! Anyways, sorry for venting. I'm so tired and wish I could sleep all night long like daddy :-(

Soooo close!

Brock ALMOST rolled over from his back to his belly today! Check it out:

... and so they meet!

Let me first say Merry Christmas and Happy New year to you all! We hope this Holiday season was as special for you as it was for us.

Brock got to meet my sister Tina for the first time on December 20th! It was so special :-) When Tina got here Brock was sleeping in his crib. She went with me to his room and cried when she saw him :-( Since she moved to AZ we see each other on our webcams all the time. After I had Brock, I would sit him in front of the computer so Tina could talk to Brock. When she held him for the first time, he would not stop talking to her! It was soooo cute!
Here they are:



My sister was here for 2 whole weeks! It was so fun having her back home. I didn't realize how much I actually missed her until she left this second time :-( I wish she'd move back home, but I know she's doing what is best for her right now.

Here is a picture to show you how much we love our webcams. Since my sister moved, she's "been" to birthday parties and even experienced our niece's 1st steps! Here she is with her boyfriend on the left of the picture while we're singing Happy Birthday to our nephew:


Here are some more pictures of the last two weeks. Enjoy!



Someone's getting a double chin... LOL!


Brock playing in daddy's silly winter hat:


All of us! My mom with me and my sisters, our husbands (and Tina's boyfriend) and all of the kids!


Mom and her 4 girls



Tina and I with Brock


Brock opening his stack of books from Santa!


Brock and Tina:


Drooly face


Brock got his first round of shots right after Christmas. He cried just for a little bit and was back to his silly self within minutes!



Tina and Brock on New Year's Eve:


Aww! I miss being silly with her!

Lenna's 1st birthday! She's so cute!!

Merry Christmas everyone!! This wiill be my last post for a couple of weeks. My sister is going to be in town from AZ until after the new year. It has been 5 months since we have seen her... and this will be the first time she gets to meet Brock! She was there with me on the webcam during labor and shortly after delivering Brock. They "talk" on the webcam every once in a while too :-) We're so excited for the two of them to meet one another!

Anyway, we hope you all have a wonderful holiday and a safe and happy new year.

I need a personal assistant!

Phew! I feel like its been forever since I had a minute to myself. Since I started working I have had a really hard time getting anything done around the house. Some days I really think I need to hire a personal assistant. I don't think I've gone grocery shopping since before Thanksgiving. I haven't done laundry in FOREVER. Spike's been helping a lot with the laundry - thank God! I just haven't gotten around to folding it and putting it away.

It is so hard juggling being a professional, a mom, and a wife. I'm exhausted, yet I feel like I don't get anything done! Brock is such a good baby, but now that he's awake more often, I feel like I need to entertain him all the time. I'm so tired by the time I'm done working, I don't have the energy to cook, clean, or play mom & wife. I just don't. I hope it gets easier!

Wow... ok, pitty party over! Did you see how many times I used "I"

So we finally got our Christmas cards done! What a chore. We sent out 100 cards, and were up til almost midnight stuffing, stamping, and labeling our envelopes! But it was fun.

Brock's been sleeping soooooooo well this week. He's been going to bed between 8:30pm & 9:30pm and stays asleep until about 4:30/5am! Now I've got to make sure I'm in bed soon after him! I've been staying up until 11pm to either spend some time with Spike, clean a little, or read my book.

We have an appointment tomorrow. His 2 month appointment. I think he might get his fist set of shots tomorrow... My poor baby is going to hate me! He's a trooper though, so hopefully he handles it well!

Alright, I've gotta get going. Brock is with my sister-in-law today. I miss my little munchkin! Today is the longest we've been apart :-( Waaa!

Realizing your blessings

Its really sad that it sometimes takes a persons death to remind us how truly blessed we are. Spike and I attended a memorial service for the wife of a family friend. She was pregnant with their first child and developed H.E.L.L.P. syndrome in the 3rd trimester of her pregnancy. The only cure was to deliver the baby. She gave birth to their daughter on November 7, 2008. From what we heard, she only saw the baby for 20 minutes. There were some complications which resulted in a medically induced coma. In her last few days of life, her system started shutting down. She passed last week.

We were at the funeral home for a good two hours last night. I was totally fine when we got there, but the longer we stayed, all of the pictures in the room, and the woman's mother holding her new granddaughter really got a hold of my heart strings. When I saw her mom holding the baby, she was staring at the baby so deeply - almost as if she was looking for the little girl she just lost, but trying so hard to hold on to her daughter's memory by memorizing her granddaughters face - I got pretty emotional. We were talking to the baby's fathers mom and she was saying how there weren't any pictures of the mom holding her new baby. The only picture they had was one of grandma holding the baby next to the moms bed. You can only see part of the moms face in the picture. So sad :-( Thankfully I was sitting by myself when my emotions got to me and I wasn't standing with the group of people that Spike and his sister were standing with. All that I wanted to do was leave and go give my baby a million kisses.

Its sad that it took the death of someone for me to realize that I am so blessed to have had a healthy pregnancy and delivery. I thank God for Brock every single day, but my love for him has become so much deeper. So much so, that I can't believe I didn't love him this deeply from the beginning. I know that sounds harsh because I really love Brock, but somehow, something changed for me last night.

Ugh... I'm getting emotional just thinking about it again. I had a really hard time sleeping last night. I could not stop praying. I think I prayed for an hour straight! For my family, for my friends, for this new little baby girl who will never meet her mommy, and for her dad. May he find the strength to raise his little girl to carry her mother's legacy.