Friday, December 19, 2008

Merry Christmas everyone!! This wiill be my last post for a couple of weeks. My sister is going to be in town from AZ until after the new year. It has been 5 months since we have seen her... and this will be the first time she gets to meet Brock! She was there with me on the webcam during labor and shortly after delivering Brock. They "talk" on the webcam every once in a while too :-) We're so excited for the two of them to meet one another!

Anyway, we hope you all have a wonderful holiday and a safe and happy new year.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

I need a personal assistant!

Phew! I feel like its been forever since I had a minute to myself. Since I started working I have had a really hard time getting anything done around the house. Some days I really think I need to hire a personal assistant. I don't think I've gone grocery shopping since before Thanksgiving. I haven't done laundry in FOREVER. Spike's been helping a lot with the laundry - thank God! I just haven't gotten around to folding it and putting it away.

It is so hard juggling being a professional, a mom, and a wife. I'm exhausted, yet I feel like I don't get anything done! Brock is such a good baby, but now that he's awake more often, I feel like I need to entertain him all the time. I'm so tired by the time I'm done working, I don't have the energy to cook, clean, or play mom & wife. I just don't. I hope it gets easier!

Wow... ok, pitty party over! Did you see how many times I used "I"

So we finally got our Christmas cards done! What a chore. We sent out 100 cards, and were up til almost midnight stuffing, stamping, and labeling our envelopes! But it was fun.

Brock's been sleeping soooooooo well this week. He's been going to bed between 8:30pm & 9:30pm and stays asleep until about 4:30/5am! Now I've got to make sure I'm in bed soon after him! I've been staying up until 11pm to either spend some time with Spike, clean a little, or read my book.

We have an appointment tomorrow. His 2 month appointment. I think he might get his fist set of shots tomorrow... My poor baby is going to hate me! He's a trooper though, so hopefully he handles it well!

Alright, I've gotta get going. Brock is with my sister-in-law today. I miss my little munchkin! Today is the longest we've been apart :-( Waaa!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Realizing your blessings

Its really sad that it sometimes takes a persons death to remind us how truly blessed we are. Spike and I attended a memorial service for the wife of a family friend. She was pregnant with their first child and developed H.E.L.L.P. syndrome in the 3rd trimester of her pregnancy. The only cure was to deliver the baby. She gave birth to their daughter on November 7, 2008. From what we heard, she only saw the baby for 20 minutes. There were some complications which resulted in a medically induced coma. In her last few days of life, her system started shutting down. She passed last week.

We were at the funeral home for a good two hours last night. I was totally fine when we got there, but the longer we stayed, all of the pictures in the room, and the woman's mother holding her new granddaughter really got a hold of my heart strings. When I saw her mom holding the baby, she was staring at the baby so deeply - almost as if she was looking for the little girl she just lost, but trying so hard to hold on to her daughter's memory by memorizing her granddaughters face - I got pretty emotional. We were talking to the baby's fathers mom and she was saying how there weren't any pictures of the mom holding her new baby. The only picture they had was one of grandma holding the baby next to the moms bed. You can only see part of the moms face in the picture. So sad :-( Thankfully I was sitting by myself when my emotions got to me and I wasn't standing with the group of people that Spike and his sister were standing with. All that I wanted to do was leave and go give my baby a million kisses.

Its sad that it took the death of someone for me to realize that I am so blessed to have had a healthy pregnancy and delivery. I thank God for Brock every single day, but my love for him has become so much deeper. So much so, that I can't believe I didn't love him this deeply from the beginning. I know that sounds harsh because I really love Brock, but somehow, something changed for me last night.

Ugh... I'm getting emotional just thinking about it again. I had a really hard time sleeping last night. I could not stop praying. I think I prayed for an hour straight! For my family, for my friends, for this new little baby girl who will never meet her mommy, and for her dad. May he find the strength to raise his little girl to carry her mother's legacy.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Merry Christmas! Love, Brock!!

Sorry the video is kind of dark, but I HAD to post this!!!

Story time and a cute observation

So most nights, either Spike or myself read a book to Brock before bedtime. Well we noticed that if he starts getting fussy before we start reading, he'll calm down as soon as we open a book and start reading! Then, the last two times we read to him he actually fell asleep (like a deep sleep, out for the night kind of sleep) as soon as we finished the book! How cute! He loves story time! He doesn't look at the book yet, but he stops fussing and wiggling around, so I assume he's listening! :-)

We also noticed that Brock started rubbing his eyes when he's tired and ready for bed! I guess I assumed this was a learned behavior, but neither one of us do it! It is the cutest thing ever!!

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Quick family update

Sorry I don't have time to post a long update, but we've been sort of MIA in the blog world in the last two weeks. After my dad came to visit, I came down with a cold. Brock caught it by the end of the week and the week after that, Spike caught it. Brock had it pretty bad because he couldn't blow his nose. So needless to say there was lots of sneezing, flying snot, and a nasty cough that broke my heart. He's feeling so much better now!

We enjoyed our very first Thanksgiving as a new family with both of our families. We started at Spike's family's house for lunch, then headed to my mom's for dinner. Brock looked so cute. We had him dressed in the cutest sweater vest and khaki pants. He looked like a little man!

Here are all of my nieces and nephews with Brock! So cute!!

The day after Thanksgiving Brock and I went to my sister-in-law's house for our annual all-day cookie baking day! While its always a hoot, this year ended up being 12 hours long! The longest yet! And the funny thing is that we thought we had a plan put in place to make the day not be as long... obviously the plan was a little flawed!

Anyway, my other sister-in-law was there with her son too. Everything was going great until he got mad that he couldn't have candy, and chucked a toy at our niece (who was holding Brock at the time). Well, the toy happened to hit Brock straight in the face! My poor baby boy! He's ok and didn't even bruise.

So, on to yesterday's ordeal... I was getting ready for my 6 week check up. I had Brock hanging out with me on our bed. I stood up and propped some pillows up around him so he wouldn't fall while I went across the hall to get his bouncy seat... well out of nowhere our cat jumped up on our bed (he was hyper so he came flying from the living room). He managed to jump over Brock, but his back paw got caught on Brock's cheek. He scratched him pretty bad. I freaked out! I pressed a towel to his face to stop the bleeding and called the pediatrician. Since he is so little, they wanted to take a look at him ASAP. Spike came home from work and we took him to the doctor. She looked at it and was concerned with how deep it was. The scratch is about an inch long right next to his lips. So anyway, the doctor came in and looked at it, then had another pediatrician come in to take a look... then they referred us to a plastic surgeon. They felt that if any intervention were to take place, it would be best if a plastic surgeon took care of it. So off we went. The plastic surgeon looked at it and felt that it wasn't deep enough to require stitches or any tape. All we have to do is apply neosporin once a day until it heals. He said that babies heal really fast, so it is highly unlikely to have a visible scar. All I have to say about yesterday is that my son is tougher than nails. Not anything like the saying "tough as nails" because he really is tougher! He was smiling away within minutes, while I was sitting there bawling my eyes out!

So... all in all... I've proven to be a bad mother in the last two weeks. I gave my son a nasty cold, couldn't protect him from a flying toy, and allowed our cat to scratch his face :-( I think I need to start going to church. I have no clue how I am going to handle Brock getting any more serious injuries or illnesses. I've been a mess. I need to become a much stronger woman to raise a boy.

Wow. This ended up being a lot longer than I planned. Sorry! Its nice to get it all out! Brock is sound asleep in daddy's arms!